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Well, it looks like I'll be staying home for Thanksgiving. My car is busted and I'm broke as hell. Oh well, I didn't want to make that drive anyway. I wanted to get out of here, but that drive - my god, it's terrible.

I was supposed to go out with Kelly, Mark, Liz, and Chris on Saturday night so they could all meet Kitten but that fell through (not because of Kitten). We ended up hanging out here drinking and listening to music. Rachel was here installing software when everyone came over so she hung out. She got a little too drunk and ended up sleeping in my recliner for the night.

I'm really sick of sitting at home every night watching TV. I want to go out and do stuff, meet new people, have fun. Unfortunately, there's no one worth meeting and nothing worth doing around here. This place will kill me if I don't get out soon. I'm not a hermit. I like to socialize. I like going out. I need to find somewhere else to live and soon. If I stay here much longer, I very well may become one of the people I hate. I'm so tempted to go out to a bar and get drunk and talk to whoever just because there is nothing else to do and I'm so tired of sitting here. No question, I have to leave soon! If I don't get out of here in the next year, I will lose my mind and probably complete control of my life.

Kitten is going to drive me crazy. I don't know what she wants. She doesn't seem to be interested in me anymore and to be honest, I'm not really sure how interested in her I am either. She loves it here and I despise it. She calls St. Augustine "Paradise" for gods sake! She wants to get a house here and live for the rest of her life. I'm not really sure why because she claims that (and I'm paraphrasing) that her life has gone to shit since she moved here. She spends her time hanging out on barstools with people who have no hopes, dreams, or motivation to do something other than sit on a barstool. She complains about how her friends annoy her but she continues to hang out with them. I really like her but her actions really scare me. How she expects to have a "normal life" and a family is beyond me. Who would want to have a family with someone who lives like her? If she's not grown up enough by 28 (and she isn't), I can't imagine her ever growing up enough to have a family.

Time to relax. Bye :)